This whole college bullshit is getting on my last nerve. I’m having a hard time figuring out where I’m ACTUALLY going. A couple days ago my mom told me that she doesn’t know if I’ll be able to attend Drexel. You know I wish the “chips” will fall where they’re supposed to already. I’m tired of playing games in trying to figure out where I’m supposed to go. It’s pissing me off.

Do you guys remember Rocket Power on Nickalodeon? That was my show when I was younger. I used to love the types of sports they did. I always wanted to learn how to skateboard, snowboard, and surf. I’ve always wanted to go to LA or Florida just so I could surf. I hear surfing doesn’t really work as well when you’re a plus sized female, but I don’t give a shit. I still want to learn. I caught an episode of Rob and Big on MTV a couple of weeks ago. The episode was showing Rob what it’s really like to be a big person. The last part of the show showed Rob, dressed in a fat suite, skateboarding. It was a aim and miss of course, but I still want to try it. Maybe not on the Half Pipe, but you know just the whole boarding thing.

How do you feel about obesity in America? Do you think that all fat people should die or loose weight just to fit in with the “in” crowd. Honestly, I think that’s bullshit. I can understand if you’re overweight and unhealty.. you know at risk of having heart disease. I can understand the concequences of not loosing weight when your doctor warns you of these risks. I’m personally struggling with my weight. I’ve been taught for so long that being skinny is pretty. I’ve been taught for so long that if you’re overweight you’ll never find a man will find you attractive. Now that I’m eighteen my mom has let go of drilling me about loosing weight. I’m learning how the world is slowly but surely. Half of my mind is telling me that my mom is right, maybe I should loose weight, so I can feel better about myself. Then the other part is saying why can’t I feel better about myself at the weight that I am. I don’t know. Just some thoughts that have been crossing my mind.

I made a post not two seconds before typing up this one about places for plus sized females to shop. It was actually an accident, I meant to write a page. But, if you know of any other websites let me know in a comment on that post. I’d be glad to know.

For my own pleasure of viewing, I need to keep a list of online spots where I can update my fashion swag. But seriously, if you know of any other sites, please let me know. I’m open to suggestion.

Alloy
Avenue
Lane Bryant
B and Lu
Torrid
Dots
Old Navy
Dr Jays
Monif C.
Belle Avenue